So my cousin officially made it through his surgery! He is so little and tired but doing well! I was so excited! My aunt Kaki sent me texts randomly to let me know how the procedure was going and it all went well. I am so thankful that God guided the hands of the doctors and that he is doing well! Thank you so much Lord for being there!!
God has been teaching me a HUGE lesson lately that i dont particularly like but i am learning. He is teaching me that i cant fix everything. Wow! What a new concept for me! :)
Anyone that knows me knows that i have a mom complex. I want to take care of things and fix things, even when it is not possible. That is something i have had to work extra hard on lately. God has a specific plan for everyone and when He is working in someone else's life i have to just wait and be patient. Patience...another concept i am not so good at! I am learning everyday that God has the ultimate plan for everyone and that i cant do anything but just pray and be there when needed. This is hard for me because i care so much, most of the time too much. That is my downfall, i care way too much. Seeing people that i care about and love hurt or struggle is difficult for me, like extra extra difficult. The past few days have been good for me though because i have learned that i have to lean on God and trust that He has things under control.
Please continue to say prayers for my cousin as he heals and gets his strength back. Please also keep your prayers with my friend Katrina who just got back from boot camp. Pray for strength and courage as she is adjusting to home.
Just a reminder, we should all be thankful for the lessons that God teaches us every day. No it is definately not easy at all, i know. Yet, we have to be willing to be still and listen and allow God to work. We have to let God work HIS way and in HIS time, not our own. The song that has really been worship for me today is "Beautiful" by Kari Jobe. Here are the lyrics of the chorus:
"Here before your altar, I am letting go of who I am. Of every motive, of every burden, everything thats of myself. I just want to wait on you my God, I just want to dwell on who You are. Beautiful, beautiful, I am lost for words to say. Beautiful, beautiful, oh Lord, Your beautiful to me."
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Prayer
Found out that my cousin Anthony is having surgery right now to get a new valve placed in his heart. This is a very scary procedure and my family is really nervous about it. Please say a prayer that God will protect him, comfort his family and our family, and that he would guide the hands of the doctors working on him. I know that God knows what is best. That God has a plan and he will protect him, i am having faith. It is hard though, fear creaps in and tries to take over. It causes us to doubt, to stray from what God wants from us and to sometimes cause us to run. That is why God specifically says in Joshua 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go."
I am going to admit right here and now that it is hard for me. It is not easy to just trust and have faith that things will be okay. I tend to do a good job about putting on a face and making everyone think I am alright. But I have struggles just as much as the next person. That is why I put this as my status on facebook earlier:
"Treat everyone better than they deserve, because everyone is fighting their own battles.' No one has it all together, no one is perfect, we all have struggles, including me. that is why because of Christ, we should become selfless and be a living example and support for the people around us."
Growing up in a christian home and knowing right from wrong is a good thing. Yet, i have learned that instead of becoming passionate I become judegmental. Judgemental of myself and judegmental of others. No one has it all together, it is easy to pretend that we do. I have had to learn that being concerned for others isnt the same as pointing out their faults. We as christians have to learn how to step out of the box of looking at everything that is done wrong, and looking at the things that are done right. But before we can even look at anyone else we have to look at ourselves. We have to see if we are being the kind of example for others that we need to be. Are we saying the right things, acting the right way, giving up enough?
I know for me it has just been an easy fly by and do what I need to do, not a passion. But that will change.
One of my friends just got back from boot camp working so hard. She gave up everything to follow what she felt God wanted her to do. What would this look like for me? What have I given up to follow what God wants for me? I dont know that right now I have an answer for that. It is hard to know that so many people will drop many things, or completely step out of their comfort zone to do what God wants for us and yet we complain that going to church on Sunday morning and Wednesday is too much for us. Or we complain about others around us who arent exactly the way we want them to be. Why dont we take some time to look at who we are.
Surrender does not by definition mean-give up what you want to give up. It means- give up EVERYTHING.
Lord,
I ask that you would open my heart. I ask that you would show me what I need to do to follow you. I ask that you would take away my selfishness and give me a selfless attitude. Please help me to have a passion and not just a routine of living for you. I ask that you would help us all to see how the faith that we have can make a difference. Give us the strength to step out of our comfort zones and be willing to be open and to be broken. Please be with my cousin Anthony that you would protect him and comfort him. Please guide the hands of the doctors that they would know exactly what to do. i love you with all that i am and all that i will ever be.
Amen
I am going to admit right here and now that it is hard for me. It is not easy to just trust and have faith that things will be okay. I tend to do a good job about putting on a face and making everyone think I am alright. But I have struggles just as much as the next person. That is why I put this as my status on facebook earlier:
"Treat everyone better than they deserve, because everyone is fighting their own battles.' No one has it all together, no one is perfect, we all have struggles, including me. that is why because of Christ, we should become selfless and be a living example and support for the people around us."
Growing up in a christian home and knowing right from wrong is a good thing. Yet, i have learned that instead of becoming passionate I become judegmental. Judgemental of myself and judegmental of others. No one has it all together, it is easy to pretend that we do. I have had to learn that being concerned for others isnt the same as pointing out their faults. We as christians have to learn how to step out of the box of looking at everything that is done wrong, and looking at the things that are done right. But before we can even look at anyone else we have to look at ourselves. We have to see if we are being the kind of example for others that we need to be. Are we saying the right things, acting the right way, giving up enough?
I know for me it has just been an easy fly by and do what I need to do, not a passion. But that will change.
One of my friends just got back from boot camp working so hard. She gave up everything to follow what she felt God wanted her to do. What would this look like for me? What have I given up to follow what God wants for me? I dont know that right now I have an answer for that. It is hard to know that so many people will drop many things, or completely step out of their comfort zone to do what God wants for us and yet we complain that going to church on Sunday morning and Wednesday is too much for us. Or we complain about others around us who arent exactly the way we want them to be. Why dont we take some time to look at who we are.
Surrender does not by definition mean-give up what you want to give up. It means- give up EVERYTHING.
Lord,
I ask that you would open my heart. I ask that you would show me what I need to do to follow you. I ask that you would take away my selfishness and give me a selfless attitude. Please help me to have a passion and not just a routine of living for you. I ask that you would help us all to see how the faith that we have can make a difference. Give us the strength to step out of our comfort zones and be willing to be open and to be broken. Please be with my cousin Anthony that you would protect him and comfort him. Please guide the hands of the doctors that they would know exactly what to do. i love you with all that i am and all that i will ever be.
Amen
Friday, August 13, 2010
Welcome Home Katrina!
Spent some time in what seemed like the smallest airport in the entire world! My guess is it just felt like that because I was so ready for Katrina to walk through the gate! After 10 weeks of training, drills, hot temperatures she is finally home from Boot Camp. I am so glad! Seeing her walk through the gate and us trample her with hugs made the wait totally worth it. She looked so professional in her uniform and boots. I couldnt be more proud of her!
It was so good to finally see her again after so long and hear how she was doing! The stories she has told and will tell make it all worth it! I am so proud of her for working so hard and accomplishing something that most people couldnt do. I know I couldnt! The first time I got screamed at I would cry and go home! :) She had to go through some rough, hot and frustrating days but did it. She graduated and is ready for the next step she has to take. We are so proud of her for taking a chance and doing something that was out of her comfort zone. She was willing to take her time away from her family and friends to do what she felt God wanted her to do. I hope I can continue to take that same step of faith every single day in my walk with Christ.
Katrina, We have missed you so much while you have been gone and are so glad that you are home safe! God is going to use you in amazing ways! He has already shown you a strength that you werent sure that you had. I am so proud of you and cant wait to spend time with you hearing about all the tough times you had that in the end were a victory!
We love you! Welcome Home Army Girl!
It was so good to finally see her again after so long and hear how she was doing! The stories she has told and will tell make it all worth it! I am so proud of her for working so hard and accomplishing something that most people couldnt do. I know I couldnt! The first time I got screamed at I would cry and go home! :) She had to go through some rough, hot and frustrating days but did it. She graduated and is ready for the next step she has to take. We are so proud of her for taking a chance and doing something that was out of her comfort zone. She was willing to take her time away from her family and friends to do what she felt God wanted her to do. I hope I can continue to take that same step of faith every single day in my walk with Christ.
Katrina, We have missed you so much while you have been gone and are so glad that you are home safe! God is going to use you in amazing ways! He has already shown you a strength that you werent sure that you had. I am so proud of you and cant wait to spend time with you hearing about all the tough times you had that in the end were a victory!
We love you! Welcome Home Army Girl!
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Worship
I dont think there are any words that could describe the feeling you get in your heart when youth worship. Last night our youth band did a great job leading worship. A lot of our younger girls in the group had their hands raised. They have all talked so many times about how nervous they were to really let go and worship without worrying about the people around them and they finally did. I was so proud of them. Seeing youth worship is one of those unexplainable life changing moments for me. It is like a slap in the face when I am not worshiping the way that I need, it is a good example that we shouldnt be afraid to step out of our comfort zones a little, sometimes a lot. Wow, how someone so young can make a difference. Oh yeah they can. They think because they are young that no one watches them and they cant make an impact, but boy can they!
Worship is like a step of faith. Learning to let go and let God have a hold of your heart. It isnt about showing off or doing what everyone else is doing. Worship is about leading you to what God wants for you and listening for His voice. No matter how hard that can be sometimes.
I will pray that we would all become people of worship not just at church during the songs, but in our daily lives.
Today is the first day back to school for Tuttle, Bridge Creek and Blanchard schools! Take some time today to pray for those students. Pray that they would open their hearts to God and allow Him to work through them. Let them see the mission field they have for the next year of their lives. Pray they will have strength and courage to reach out to a lost and hopeless world.
Dear Lord,
I asked that you would please be with the students going back to school today. I pray that you would give them the words to say and the example they need in their actions. Give them strength and courage as they reach out to their lost friends and comfort those that need you. Please help them to realize this is the biggest mission field they have at this time and to take advantage of it! Comfort them and let them know even when they are being persecuted for being different that it is worth it. Those struggles are worth it because you love them and have so much more for them in the end.
In your name i pray,
AMEN
Worship is like a step of faith. Learning to let go and let God have a hold of your heart. It isnt about showing off or doing what everyone else is doing. Worship is about leading you to what God wants for you and listening for His voice. No matter how hard that can be sometimes.
I will pray that we would all become people of worship not just at church during the songs, but in our daily lives.
Today is the first day back to school for Tuttle, Bridge Creek and Blanchard schools! Take some time today to pray for those students. Pray that they would open their hearts to God and allow Him to work through them. Let them see the mission field they have for the next year of their lives. Pray they will have strength and courage to reach out to a lost and hopeless world.
Dear Lord,
I asked that you would please be with the students going back to school today. I pray that you would give them the words to say and the example they need in their actions. Give them strength and courage as they reach out to their lost friends and comfort those that need you. Please help them to realize this is the biggest mission field they have at this time and to take advantage of it! Comfort them and let them know even when they are being persecuted for being different that it is worth it. Those struggles are worth it because you love them and have so much more for them in the end.
In your name i pray,
AMEN
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Grandpa's Visit
So our grandpa came for a few days to visit and will be leaving in the morning. He sang with dad on Sunday, they even planned to record some songs to make a cd. I think it is a great idea to make a cd because it is something that we could keep forever. For the last few days we have all been eating dinner as a family and playing games. Tonight we played cards for a little while with grandpa before he has to leave in the morning. It has been really good to see him, because with him living in Wisconsin we only see him during Christmas or very special events. I love seeing him. It also makes me miss my grandma a lot. I wish that she was here to hear grandpa and dad sing, to hear us sing as family, to hang out and talk, and play cards (she always won)! :)
My grandma was one of the most amazing people that I have ever known. I loved her so much and still do! It makes me happy to know that I will see her again someday! She is my hero and an amazing example! Grandpa reminds me of her so much. The way he laughs and the things that he says. I love it! I pray for him every day that he would continue to get better and stay healthy so that he will be around for a lot more years to come!
My grandma was one of the most amazing people that I have ever known. I loved her so much and still do! It makes me happy to know that I will see her again someday! She is my hero and an amazing example! Grandpa reminds me of her so much. The way he laughs and the things that he says. I love it! I pray for him every day that he would continue to get better and stay healthy so that he will be around for a lot more years to come!
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Life Changing
So I officially got into the Teacher Education Program, Monday, August 2nd. I am so excited that I finally was able to get everything done. I worked for hours in the library and in the education building typing and working through my folder and file box. Then I went over to the head of the education department in my shorts and tshirt. We talked for a while about my plans and then she interviewed me right then and there. No fancy clothes or anything! It was awesome! Then she said I was officially in the program and could enroll! I was so excited to finally be able to work on my upper level classes. Now I have a plan and should graduate next December! :)
It is Wednesday and I got my schedule today for classes that start in a couple weeks. Busy schedule of school and work, way to much to do! I am going to be exhausted, but it is totally worth it!
I am watching the movie "To Save A Life". Wow it is amazing. I dont think that I have ever seen a movie that touched my heart this much. One line that really got to me is when the new kid that started going to church said, "whats the point if it isnt changing your life?" What is the point of going to church if we arent going to live it? We need to be willing to reach out to others, especially the ones that dont feel they fit in and dont feel loved. It is so worth it!
Everyone should see this movie, I think it is really going to change lives!
It is Wednesday and I got my schedule today for classes that start in a couple weeks. Busy schedule of school and work, way to much to do! I am going to be exhausted, but it is totally worth it!
I am watching the movie "To Save A Life". Wow it is amazing. I dont think that I have ever seen a movie that touched my heart this much. One line that really got to me is when the new kid that started going to church said, "whats the point if it isnt changing your life?" What is the point of going to church if we arent going to live it? We need to be willing to reach out to others, especially the ones that dont feel they fit in and dont feel loved. It is so worth it!
Everyone should see this movie, I think it is really going to change lives!
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Portfolio Time!
So after a lot of stress about the semester coming up I have finally figured out that I am going to be able to get admitted to the teacher ed program!! Yes it is going to take a lot of time and hard work but it will be worth it! I have been praying hard that God would open the doors and show me what I need to be doing and He did yesterday! I called the school, expecting to be disappointed at the fact that I would have to wait another semester to get admitted into the program, but was surprised! The head of the education department worked with me and told me everything that I need to do to get it all done. I have been nervous that I wouldnt be able to complete everything that I need to. My GPA has gone up due to my 3 A's and 1 B last semester! I worked so hard and it makes me so happy! I have a lot of work ahead of me but I know that God has me right here for a reason and I cant wait!
Please keep your prayers with me as I go through an interview process to get admitted!
Also pray that my schedule will work out for the best this semester, that I can take the classes I need, that the classes will be open, and that my job will also work out with my schedule!
Please keep your prayers with me as I go through an interview process to get admitted!
Also pray that my schedule will work out for the best this semester, that I can take the classes I need, that the classes will be open, and that my job will also work out with my schedule!
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